I've been meaning to write this for a while now, but I still can't really find the words. I know, it's very unlike me to be speechless, but....I just don't know how to respond to what's happening right now. See, God has been showing me something I've never truly believed - that I have worth. Innately, simply because I exist and was created, I have worth. It's really quite scandalous, if you think about it. Through no achievement of my own I am attributed with divine worth.
So how has God been showing me this? Through His people. Something odd has been happening lately. People.....like me? What? Since when does that happen? I've always been kind of a loner, not many friends. So the fact that people actually enjoy my company and want me around is kind of mind blowing. I just moved into a house with two amazing women from my church, and they both genuinely want to spend time with me. I'm speechless at this turn of events.
Another friend of mine recently adopted a puppy. I've learned a lot about how God relates to us by watching them, but the thing that always strikes me is how my friend truly delights in this puppy. She'll say things like, "I love when she's so happy her tail curls all the way over on her back." or "Look how excited she gets with that thing!" Little statements appreciating the tiny intricacies seen only by a master. It strikes me every time that the Bible says God delights over me in the same way. The joy and love and intimacy I hear when my friend talks about her dog are only a shadow of how God talks about me. He delights in my idiosyncrasies because He created them. He delights in every part of me. Me!
It's rather scandalous, this idea that I am valuable. In truth, I am a worthless sinner who was dead until Christ rescued me. But while I was still dead, God said I was worth His love, worth His Son's life, so that He could be with me again. And now I am rescued, alive, a treasured princess. May I finally begin to live like it.
