O. M. G. seriously guys, there are no words. i just watched a show at nashville's most famous venue, the bluebird cafe. overall, the music tonight was a little too country for me, but the atmosphere was another story entirely. people appreciate music here like you wouldn't believe in nebraska. this place has written itself on my heart all over again. i really do feel like this is my narnia, the place i'm made for. i honestly want to cry right now because i don't want to leave. the local Christian radio station has been talking about believing God in prayer. He promised us that when we ask for His plans, He'll deliver. i really feel like He's asking me to trust Him on this whole thing. which, duh, of course i have to trust Him. but i have to BELIEVE Him too. i know that He made me for this place, for this life, and i need to believe that He's going to make a way for it and just stop worrying. i finally got to sit and spend some time talking with Him last night, and i started out asking Him about this whole insane lodging situation i've had. it felt very unfair of Him to oust me from my original place and put me through all that stress. which, of course, led to me being upset with myself for worrying and not just trusting Him. "But it was a big deal! of course i'm going to worry about having a roof over my head!" I said. "You're right," He said. "Kind of like getting a job." oh. well, crap. "And I came through for you, didn't I? in fact, you like this place and these girls much more, don't you?" super crap. He pinned me to the wall so quickly i didn't even see it coming. yes, of course He did the best thing for me. all three of the girls i'm staying with now are absolutely incredible examples of how to love people. they're awesome. God knew exactly what i was looking for, the kind of people i needed around me, and He made it happen. i had absolutely no reason to worry or be stressed. He was only making it better. and He wants me to trust Him with my career. He'll come through on that, too. I don't need to worry for even a second. So I'm trying hard to believe that He's going to come through with a job, even though I might not know where or when. He made me for this, and He'll make a way. Pray that I come to really believe that, friends.
Tomorrow (Thursday) is my meeting with artist manager D. 3 PM. i'm all kinds of excited and nervous. i have no idea how it will unfold, but pray for me!
in other news, my power source for my computer doesn't seem to be happy tonight. maybe it's just the outlet here. let's hope so, otherwise i have to find a new one here somewhere. gulp.
i think that's it for me tonight.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Worlds Apart: Nashville, day 5
for those of you who are counting, yes, i'm writing this on day 6. but i didn't give an update last night, as my new sleeping grounds have a lack of internet. but i'm the author, and i can do it that way if i want to. so there.
let me tell you what, my friends, it is a completely different world out here. i caught a show last night, which isn't exactly something that happens frequently in nebraska. but here, there's probably 30 different venues having shows on any given night. it's amazing. we heard 4 different acts last night, ending with a gal named mattie diaz. and she was awesome. i hung out with a new friend i'd met the night before and asked him all kinds of questions about doing music for money. it's not an easy road, and there's a LOT of luck involved. but that's it for me. it's what i'm made for.
now don't get me wrong, i miss everyone back home (probably joey and phoebe most of all...), but i am officially addicted to nashville. there's a new switchfoot song out, called "this is home." it's played a couple times while i've been driving here and there (the christian station here is reminiscent of kearney's "hits one through six"), and this song just gets me every time. it was originally written for prince caspian, so it's about narnia and being made for a place that's so far and so different from your own, but still so completely right for you. and that's what it's like for me here. i think that's the best way i have to explain it.
yes, mom and dad, i'm handing out resumes and filling out applications like crazy. it's just not very blog-worthy, what with all the other fun things happening.
had my very first chick-fil-a experience today, and i gotta say, it was pretty extraordinary. nebraska definitely needs to discover that place. you don't know what you're missing.
i'm starting to feel like i have a decent grasp of where things are now. the city's laid out more like a spoke wheel than a grid, and the streets change their names more often than crazy horse's people. but i've used the "drive around until i find it" method (once i'm in the general vicinity), and it's been working out pretty well.
ahh, some brandon heath in the headphones. where are you, brandon? still hoping for a divine "coincidence" to let me run into him in the next week.
in other news, my feet are still swelling like crazy. not sure what that's about. if anyone has any ideas, give me a heads up.
keep praying for the job to come through. i've got a lot of places to hit up still. i love it here. more tomorrow.
p.s. for the love of pete, will you "anonymous" people writing comments please identify yourselves in your post?! it drives me nuts to not know who's posting.
let me tell you what, my friends, it is a completely different world out here. i caught a show last night, which isn't exactly something that happens frequently in nebraska. but here, there's probably 30 different venues having shows on any given night. it's amazing. we heard 4 different acts last night, ending with a gal named mattie diaz. and she was awesome. i hung out with a new friend i'd met the night before and asked him all kinds of questions about doing music for money. it's not an easy road, and there's a LOT of luck involved. but that's it for me. it's what i'm made for.
now don't get me wrong, i miss everyone back home (probably joey and phoebe most of all...), but i am officially addicted to nashville. there's a new switchfoot song out, called "this is home." it's played a couple times while i've been driving here and there (the christian station here is reminiscent of kearney's "hits one through six"), and this song just gets me every time. it was originally written for prince caspian, so it's about narnia and being made for a place that's so far and so different from your own, but still so completely right for you. and that's what it's like for me here. i think that's the best way i have to explain it.
yes, mom and dad, i'm handing out resumes and filling out applications like crazy. it's just not very blog-worthy, what with all the other fun things happening.
had my very first chick-fil-a experience today, and i gotta say, it was pretty extraordinary. nebraska definitely needs to discover that place. you don't know what you're missing.
i'm starting to feel like i have a decent grasp of where things are now. the city's laid out more like a spoke wheel than a grid, and the streets change their names more often than crazy horse's people. but i've used the "drive around until i find it" method (once i'm in the general vicinity), and it's been working out pretty well.
ahh, some brandon heath in the headphones. where are you, brandon? still hoping for a divine "coincidence" to let me run into him in the next week.
in other news, my feet are still swelling like crazy. not sure what that's about. if anyone has any ideas, give me a heads up.
keep praying for the job to come through. i've got a lot of places to hit up still. i love it here. more tomorrow.
p.s. for the love of pete, will you "anonymous" people writing comments please identify yourselves in your post?! it drives me nuts to not know who's posting.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Red Sky - Nashville, day 4
well friends, it's been quite a day. for "anonymus" below, i'm fine. i'm completely safe; there will be no cardboard boxes involved. i went to church tonight with my friend here (who i'll refer to as K for further purposes), which was pretty great. let me tell you what, my midwestern friends, there is nothing like worship in a church in nashville. everyone sings! and most of them do it really well! it's a whole different vibe than our nebraskan worship, in some churches (not you, my new cov friends!) known as the "frozen chosen." it was awesome. and chris rice was there. sweet.
after that we went to a cookout with a bunch of people from afore-mentioned church for someone's birthday. it was really fun, and everyone was really great. it was the kind of thing that doesn't happen much for me in nebraska anymore; just a bunch of people (like around 50ish) getting together, having food, playing some wii sports, quickly followed by guitar hero, hanging out, and having fun. i met some really great people, one of whom gave me a tip on a show i want to check out tomorrow night. most notably, i have a promising lead on a place to stay. details can be worked out further tomorrow, but for the moment, it will be alright. it's not exactly what i had planned, and i'm a little nervous because i haven't met them before at all, but i trust K's judgement on people, and she says they're good people. everything is going to be okay. i'm still pretty stressed, but i'm a little better. i'm also completely exhausted, and i can barely keep my eyes open, so this will have to be it for right now. keep praying for God to provide for me.
after that we went to a cookout with a bunch of people from afore-mentioned church for someone's birthday. it was really fun, and everyone was really great. it was the kind of thing that doesn't happen much for me in nebraska anymore; just a bunch of people (like around 50ish) getting together, having food, playing some wii sports, quickly followed by guitar hero, hanging out, and having fun. i met some really great people, one of whom gave me a tip on a show i want to check out tomorrow night. most notably, i have a promising lead on a place to stay. details can be worked out further tomorrow, but for the moment, it will be alright. it's not exactly what i had planned, and i'm a little nervous because i haven't met them before at all, but i trust K's judgement on people, and she says they're good people. everything is going to be okay. i'm still pretty stressed, but i'm a little better. i'm also completely exhausted, and i can barely keep my eyes open, so this will have to be it for right now. keep praying for God to provide for me.
Rescue - Nashville, days 2-3
well friends, it certainly hasn't been what i thought it would be, at least in some aspects.
first off, let me give a great big plug for Ted Dekker and The Gathering. it was beyond awesome. bringing stories to life, helping us experience that redemptive love all over again, as well as pry inside the mind of one of the most creative minds on the planet today. there are no words to properly describe it. it was truly an experience like none other.
the day of the gathering, however, didn't exactly go as planned. i was supposed to be picked up by someone else going to the event. we had spoken the night before on the phone, setting everything up. but that morning, they were a no-show. i tried calling like five times and got nothing. finally called for a cab around 7:30; they said it would be there in 20 min. at 9, after a series of phone calls between myself, the cab company, and the driver, i was finally off to the event. i did my best to throw it off, to disregard the stress, and enjoy the day. and that went pretty well, until the end of the day came and i needed a ride home. i had talked to the people sitting around me, but it was a no-go on all fronts, for various reasons. and that was my last straw.
i've been holding it together really well for the last few weeks, keeping my urge to freak out at bay. but this time, it was too much. i found myself breaking down in the factory in franklin, alone, overwhelmed, and unsure where to turn. my fabulous friend that's been hanging with me out here ended up forgoing her own evening plans to come get me, for which i cannot repay her.
but wait, there's more. after i got home, the gal i'm staying with told me that my being here is "more of an inconvenience than she thought it would be," and i should find someplace else to stay. nevermind that she already knows i have no other place to stay. so i just took it and told her it was fine. i'm contacting some people back home that know other people here and my friend is reaching out to her friends. i know that God will provide for me, and i will find a place to be. but the finding it is stressfull. i don't at all see it as a sign to turn tail and run. God has fought too hard to bring me here for me to run at the first sign of difficulty. but i need your prayers, friends. pray that i will find another place to stay, that God would guide me to it, and that i would be sensitive enough to Him to see and follow His lead. it's definitely an adventure out here.
first off, let me give a great big plug for Ted Dekker and The Gathering. it was beyond awesome. bringing stories to life, helping us experience that redemptive love all over again, as well as pry inside the mind of one of the most creative minds on the planet today. there are no words to properly describe it. it was truly an experience like none other.
the day of the gathering, however, didn't exactly go as planned. i was supposed to be picked up by someone else going to the event. we had spoken the night before on the phone, setting everything up. but that morning, they were a no-show. i tried calling like five times and got nothing. finally called for a cab around 7:30; they said it would be there in 20 min. at 9, after a series of phone calls between myself, the cab company, and the driver, i was finally off to the event. i did my best to throw it off, to disregard the stress, and enjoy the day. and that went pretty well, until the end of the day came and i needed a ride home. i had talked to the people sitting around me, but it was a no-go on all fronts, for various reasons. and that was my last straw.
i've been holding it together really well for the last few weeks, keeping my urge to freak out at bay. but this time, it was too much. i found myself breaking down in the factory in franklin, alone, overwhelmed, and unsure where to turn. my fabulous friend that's been hanging with me out here ended up forgoing her own evening plans to come get me, for which i cannot repay her.
but wait, there's more. after i got home, the gal i'm staying with told me that my being here is "more of an inconvenience than she thought it would be," and i should find someplace else to stay. nevermind that she already knows i have no other place to stay. so i just took it and told her it was fine. i'm contacting some people back home that know other people here and my friend is reaching out to her friends. i know that God will provide for me, and i will find a place to be. but the finding it is stressfull. i don't at all see it as a sign to turn tail and run. God has fought too hard to bring me here for me to run at the first sign of difficulty. but i need your prayers, friends. pray that i will find another place to stay, that God would guide me to it, and that i would be sensitive enough to Him to see and follow His lead. it's definitely an adventure out here.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Only Getting Started: Nashville, Day 1
tonight i'm curling up in bed in another world. the lights are bright, the trees are green, and the land is anything but flat. not too much to tell today; got here around 9 AM, got a tour of the city from a friend. spent a lot of the afternoon making friends with my map. :) tomorrow's agenda is touristy things downtown, getting the lay of the land really set in my head before i beat out a path to every business that might be hiring.
i honestly don't have much to say tonight (mostly because i've been awake for almost 24 hours now...), except that i'm so excited to be here. i've been having some stomach issues, though, so if you could pray for that to clear up, i'd appreciate it. it's hard to really enjoy this experience when my stomach is threatening to rip itself out of my body... but i got some meds and i'm starting to feel better. thanks for checkin in! more to come later.
i honestly don't have much to say tonight (mostly because i've been awake for almost 24 hours now...), except that i'm so excited to be here. i've been having some stomach issues, though, so if you could pray for that to clear up, i'd appreciate it. it's hard to really enjoy this experience when my stomach is threatening to rip itself out of my body... but i got some meds and i'm starting to feel better. thanks for checkin in! more to come later.
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