O. M. G. seriously guys, there are no words. i just watched a show at nashville's most famous venue, the bluebird cafe. overall, the music tonight was a little too country for me, but the atmosphere was another story entirely. people appreciate music here like you wouldn't believe in nebraska. this place has written itself on my heart all over again. i really do feel like this is my narnia, the place i'm made for. i honestly want to cry right now because i don't want to leave. the local Christian radio station has been talking about believing God in prayer. He promised us that when we ask for His plans, He'll deliver. i really feel like He's asking me to trust Him on this whole thing. which, duh, of course i have to trust Him. but i have to BELIEVE Him too. i know that He made me for this place, for this life, and i need to believe that He's going to make a way for it and just stop worrying. i finally got to sit and spend some time talking with Him last night, and i started out asking Him about this whole insane lodging situation i've had. it felt very unfair of Him to oust me from my original place and put me through all that stress. which, of course, led to me being upset with myself for worrying and not just trusting Him. "But it was a big deal! of course i'm going to worry about having a roof over my head!" I said. "You're right," He said. "Kind of like getting a job." oh. well, crap. "And I came through for you, didn't I? in fact, you like this place and these girls much more, don't you?" super crap. He pinned me to the wall so quickly i didn't even see it coming. yes, of course He did the best thing for me. all three of the girls i'm staying with now are absolutely incredible examples of how to love people. they're awesome. God knew exactly what i was looking for, the kind of people i needed around me, and He made it happen. i had absolutely no reason to worry or be stressed. He was only making it better. and He wants me to trust Him with my career. He'll come through on that, too. I don't need to worry for even a second. So I'm trying hard to believe that He's going to come through with a job, even though I might not know where or when. He made me for this, and He'll make a way. Pray that I come to really believe that, friends.
Tomorrow (Thursday) is my meeting with artist manager D. 3 PM. i'm all kinds of excited and nervous. i have no idea how it will unfold, but pray for me!
in other news, my power source for my computer doesn't seem to be happy tonight. maybe it's just the outlet here. let's hope so, otherwise i have to find a new one here somewhere. gulp.
i think that's it for me tonight.
I will continue to pray!
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