you know that old saying about today being the first day of the rest of your life? well, today really is for me. this morning i woke up in a beautiful apartment in Antioch, TN, just outside of Nashville proper. joey was purring and cowering under the blanket me, and phoebe was still under a chair in the living room where she spent the night. i have no furniture except for a borrowed air mattress (if that counts as furniture), most of my life is still in my car. from the outside, chaos and disarray seem to abound. and, though they admittedly have their place when it comes o moving, i've never been so excited to wake up anywhere.
it's been a long road, and the next few weeks/months will be long too. you know me; change isn't exactly something i'm great with. but it's necessary and for the best, so i forge on. but this place is me. i'm finally forging my own road, doing something no one in my family has done before. i've broken the mold, and i finally feel free to be who i am. no one has me pegged here. there's no pre-determined box for me to squeeze into. i can be that person i've started to see in myself. and i can't really explain why i didn't feel free to do it before. i just couldn't.
but this freedom came with a giant pricetag. aside from the obvious drawbacks of being a "starving artist," (severe lack of funds, overdoses of ramen noodles, etc...) yesterday i left behind the only world i've really ever known. my closest family member is 14 hours away. and i'm not sure when i'll get to go back. i have to be away from my parents indefinitely. and that sucks. i'm so thankful we live in an age where communication across distances is as easy as it is. witout that, none of you would even be reading this right now. but fortunately, i can keep you all updated easily. i can call my parents as much as i want and write emails until my fingers go numb, should i so choose.
so we've started off well. the kitties are still scared and exploring, but they're already much more adventurous than they were last night. we're gonna like it here.
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