It's not often that I find myself without the words to describe my current state. tonight, though, i know i'll never be able to explain to you everything that's going on inside. but i'm coming off a weekend that was very blog-worthy, and i feel i need to give it a shot. maybe you'll get a glimpse of me somewhere.
i spent the past few days spending time with some good friends. friends that i have no idea when i'll get the chance to see them again. it was a really great weekend. definitely in the top 10. and now i'm left with the dichotomous reaction of being happy to have spent time with people i love at such an exciting place in my life, and feeling pieces of my heart breaking for the time and distance to come.
in a weird way, being with these friends reaffirmed how strong and certain i am of my decision to search out nashville, to go find what i'm made for. these are some of my best friends, my biggest fans, and my most honest critics. they have rejoiced with me in this coming journey. it was so great to see them, and i'm still in some ways riding the high of that joy.
at the same time, my heart is breaking. i'm about to go in a direction that will be so different from what my life has been up to now. i have no idea what to expect. and certainly no idea what my schedule will be like; when i'll have time to keep in touch, let alone see old friends. my next move will undoubtedly impact every relationship in my life.
but i will fight to hold on. it's important to me to make time for keeping up with the people i care about. i do a poor job of it sometimes, but i promise to give it my best. so, my friends, thanks for this last weekend of memories. i refuse to say goodbye. you'll always be with me.
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