Rescue - Nashville, days 2-3

well friends, it certainly hasn't been what i thought it would be, at least in some aspects.

first off, let me give a great big plug for Ted Dekker and The Gathering. it was beyond awesome. bringing stories to life, helping us experience that redemptive love all over again, as well as pry inside the mind of one of the most creative minds on the planet today. there are no words to properly describe it. it was truly an experience like none other.

the day of the gathering, however, didn't exactly go as planned. i was supposed to be picked up by someone else going to the event. we had spoken the night before on the phone, setting everything up. but that morning, they were a no-show. i tried calling like five times and got nothing. finally called for a cab around 7:30; they said it would be there in 20 min. at 9, after a series of phone calls between myself, the cab company, and the driver, i was finally off to the event. i did my best to throw it off, to disregard the stress, and enjoy the day. and that went pretty well, until the end of the day came and i needed a ride home. i had talked to the people sitting around me, but it was a no-go on all fronts, for various reasons. and that was my last straw.

i've been holding it together really well for the last few weeks, keeping my urge to freak out at bay. but this time, it was too much. i found myself breaking down in the factory in franklin, alone, overwhelmed, and unsure where to turn. my fabulous friend that's been hanging with me out here ended up forgoing her own evening plans to come get me, for which i cannot repay her.

but wait, there's more. after i got home, the gal i'm staying with told me that my being here is "more of an inconvenience than she thought it would be," and i should find someplace else to stay. nevermind that she already knows i have no other place to stay. so i just took it and told her it was fine. i'm contacting some people back home that know other people here and my friend is reaching out to her friends. i know that God will provide for me, and i will find a place to be. but the finding it is stressfull. i don't at all see it as a sign to turn tail and run. God has fought too hard to bring me here for me to run at the first sign of difficulty. but i need your prayers, friends. pray that i will find another place to stay, that God would guide me to it, and that i would be sensitive enough to Him to see and follow His lead. it's definitely an adventure out here.